Creation

Loved heart, what can I say?
When I was a lark, I sang;
When I was a worm, I devoured.

The self says, I am;
The heart says, I am less;
The spirit says, you are nothing.

-Theodore Roethke

When I need inspiration or guidance, I like to flick open a poetry book at a random page. A collection by Roethke, where this excerpt is from, is one of my favourites for that. As usual, the 'random' poem was just on point (and the excerpt may not do the justice to represent that) - I was thinking about spirituality, morality, values and sexuality and how they tie in together. A never ending topic, I admit. 

One of my deep desires is to create. And my way of living is expressed a lot through sexuality, therefore I create...this :) 'Sexuality is not mere instinctuality, it is an indisputably creative power that is not only the basic cause of our individual lives, but a very serious factor in our psychic life as well', says Jung in 'On Psychic Energy'. You all trust Jung, right? But curious to hear your thoughts on sexuality and creativity.

Now, to create for me is always both internal and external activity, you may call it introspection and allowing / inviting the muse to arrive. And that's a very spiritual element - having this 'guest' visiting with their gifts, being perceptive, ready and open. I am both self, my heart and nothing, as per the poem, and this idea sets me free from trying to become 'spiritual' in what I do - this is a little teaser into the Rituals of Permission offering I'm currently researching...

And I'll leave the discussion of morals and values to another time, but I recently watched a movie called 'Seduction: The Cruel Woman' about a dominatrix, who runs a gallery, and with her masochists and submissives she stages BDSM performances for the public. A journalist comes to interview her and accuses her of running a 'gallery' just as a cheap disguise. She responds: 'to do something really surprising is art'. (He later begs to become her toilet, obviously.) And I was also reminded today about Ken Saro-Wiwa, a poet and environmentalist from Nigerian Delta who was executed for the work he was doing. His poems would support the people fighting for justice and still inspire them today. Really different examples, but both despised and adored depending on who you ask, and both on my mind today as I think about values...

Rambling but making sense to myself,
Eve