Recently during a session, in quite a heated moment, my client whispered: 'Is this real'?
I looked at him, and re-reassuringly responded 'yes'.  It certainly was for me.

After the session, I asked him to elaborate on what he meant exactly. He said he felt so far away from his daily life and routine and was in such a different state, that suddenly it all felt surreal. So he wanted to be sure.

I am glad I can co-create such states with and for people. Many of us think that pleasure is a luxury - for one reason or another - but pleasure is all around us. It is within us and our bodies are wired for pleasure. It can feed us and heal us, even in the most difficult times.

But I'm not talking about difficult times really - people who come to see me are mostly privileged and at least have some external  safety. However, pleasure, and especially sexual pleasure, is so far away from many people's daily lives, despite them wanting more of it and theoretically having all the access to it - sex toys, dating apps etc. We ne to re-learn how to enjoy, play and feel pleasure. How to reduce shame. Because, to be honest, these states my client was in are also the states that can sometimes feel the most real thing in one's life. And it's so worth it.

Kisses,
Eve

I had a session recently with a new client and the simple act of seeing his saliva dribbling over his chest, down to his belly all the way from his gagged mouth was just...exhilarating.  Certainly, this is not the first time a man in my company finds himself in such an uncomfortable situation, but there was something so simple and profound in seeing him gagged and tied up and just...dribbling non-stop.

What is it about seeing men being helpless?

Maybe it's the big taboo in finding a man without power and potentially embarrassed in front of a woman (with his consent). Maybe it's about making a mess. Maybe it's about not being polite and in order, not being perfect, just a raw human animal - dribbling, salivating, trying to stop but not being able to.  Maybe it's my own desire speaking.

I shall take a photo another time to memorise these small beautiful moments that I cherish (I never take photos with first time clients unless they specifically ask). Maybe you will appreciate it, too.

With Pleasure,
Eve

I've been dreaming about creating a little world for and about my work on the internet for a while. A space that belongs to me and that I have (at least theoretically) complete control of. How very Dominatrix of me, isn't it?

So welcome. I am so happy to have you here.

I will use this diary to share my ideas, observations and wonder. Maybe creative writing - who knows. There is excitement in the knowing that someone may read this and equally freedom in the knowing that I am writing in a vast no man's land - may these diaries be lost and found by those who need it.

With Pleasure,
Eve